{still unfinished, gonna update when I have time}

So I felt like I need to tell you somethings about me, this blog and my motivations, hopes and dreams.
Where should I start? Maybe with “Semper Fidelis”. I’m no marine so it obviously has a personal meaning. As you may know it’s latin and means “Forever Faithful”. To me it means changing but always staying true to myself. Never losing sight of what I want and why I want it. Not changing for anybody but me. This is my personal interpretation of “semper fidelis” and I try to live up to it.

Why did I start this blog/ why did I change my lifestyle?


I used to be very active as a kid/teen. I was on a swimming team and swam competitive, played basketball (center) but was never really “fit”. Now I know that it’s because of the unhealthy choices/eating pattern I had. Also I had a grandmother, who always told me I wasn’t thin enough, not good enough, but at the same time cooked food that was always dripping with fat …
That made it even worse. Around the time I got 18 I got injured and couldn’t keep on swimming/playing. And from there on it all went down the hill. The exercise was always keeping me from gaining “too” much. I still went to the gym, doing some cardio and machines every now and than but I still gained 20kg+.
I tried all those ridiculous diets. I lost some, and gained all back and somewhat. Over, and over gain.

Now I can see why:
    •     Comfort Food
    •    a mixture of skipping meals and binging
    •    Staying way under my cal minimum
    •    Lack of Exercise
    •    Alcohol !!!! aka Pub/Karaoke nights

I was NOT happy with who I had become but I didn’t know where to begin the change.

One week after my birthday (and obvious birthday bingings) I stepped on my wii to play some wii fit and my balance board told me I had reached 100+kg. I think that was the moment I knew something HAD to change. (still not sure if this weight was accurate since a week later it was already 5 kg down again but it was what got me thinking, running,… so I always put it as my HW so I know where I never ever want to go again)